Depression Intermezzo

I found this song while listening to a J-pop stream and I found them to be exactly like my inner self. It's been 8 months and still i'm not over it...talk about pathetic eh. I still use my blog to express my feelings sometimes, so...here it is.

I'm looking for you
Trying to reach your roses
Carried away by the time
Seijaku no kyouki ni katame wo
Tsubusaseta mama

You've gone away
From the stage leaving no words
There's just fake tears left
Isuwari no shinju de kazatta
Bara no hanataba wo sagasu

I'm blind insane
In the red of silence
Now I've lost your love
Gnkaku no ai ni kawareta
Aatsuri ningyo

Get me on my feet
Get me back to myself
Pretend you love me
Yubisaki made shinku ni somatta
Ore wo mitsumete

Moe taekirenai kodoku no serenade
Kyozou no umi ni nagashite
Yume kara sameta chimamire no tenshi wo
Mune ni daitemo
I can not stop

Silent jealousy
Don't you leave me alone
Kanashimi ni midarete
Modorenai ai wo kazaru
Kurikaesu kodoku no naka ni

Tell me true doko ni yukeba
Kurushimi wo aiseru
I still want you love ai wo tomete
Kurui saku kioku wo keshite

I just wanted to stay with you
I just wanted to feel your breath of grace
I didn't know what to do
I couldn't say anything
When consciousness returned
Everything had been washed away
By the tide of time, even you
But the scars of memory never fade away
I can't stop loving you
Stop my tears
Stop my loving
Kill my memories

You dyed my heart in blood
No way to kill my sadness
Tachisaru mae ni koroshite
Kyouki no ai ni dakareta hitomi wa
Nani mo mienai
Ima mo I miss you
Can't live without you

Silent jealousy
Yume ni ochite
Dakishimeru kioku wo
Stay in yesterday
Toki wo tomete
Kurikaesu kodoku wo keshite
Take me back to the memory, to the dream
Silent jealousy
Don't you leave me alone
Kanashimi ni midarete
Kill me love



[TRANSLATION]

I'm looking for you
Trying to reach your roses
Carried away by the time

Playing with the silent madness

You've gone away from the stage
Leaving no words
There's just fake tears left

Looking for that bouquet of roses
That are admired through false pearls

I'm blind insane
In the red of silence
Now I've lost your love

Look at me
I'm stained to my fingertips in deep red
I can't stand this song of silence
Flowing into the sea of phantom images
Even if I hold my heart
The blood stained angel that has arisen
I can not stop

Silent jealousy
Don't you leave me alone
Falling into sadness
Adored by love
That I can't return to
Into this repetitive solitude
Tell me true, where ever I go
I must learn to love this pain
I still want your love
Stop your love
Silence the memories
Where the madness grows

I just wanted to stay with you
I just wanted to feel the breath of your grace
I didn't know what to do
I couldn't say anything
When consciousness returned
Everything had been washed away by the tide of time, even you
But the scars of memory never fade away
I can't stop loving you
Stop my tears
Stop my loving
Kill my memories

You dyed my heart in blood
No way to kill my sadness
Kill me before you leave
I can't see anything
With the vision set on maddened love
Even now, I miss you
I can't live without you

Silent jealousy
Fall into a dream
Keep holding on to the memory
To the dream
Silent jealousy, don't you leave me alone
Fading into sadness
Kill me love



--Warynn