Cutting through a silver sky.

Heya all. I'm back from the dark. It's been a while since I last posted (again...I blame my laziness).
Soooo...what to say... Well exams are over. I've got a week of doing nothing in front of me, and altho it's going to be VERY boring at some points, I really love it. It's just what I needed. And like suddenly there's a change of wind, things are starting to look up for me. No exams means no stress from that source, my dilemma from previous post is solved (altho it was at some point like biting through a really sour apple), and life is nice in general. Strange is the way things flow.
Well about that dilemma. What mister Ritesh Dahiya suggested actually happened... before he posted it. They didn't both pick me, and altho it was painful at moments I'm happy with the way things went. I hope stuff stays to be good like this, only a little bit more then one week and i'll hopefully be really happy again ^^;;. Now i kinda feel bad for those that still have problems tho >>... *sigh* hehh well.
I bought Guild Wars the collector's edition as a treat to myself after exams and i have to say, WoW, move aside and die O.o; GW is waaaaaay better. I know some people may want to kill me painfully now, but everyone is entitled to his/her own opinion so live with it. And NO monthly fee!! Eat that!!!! ^^; I do think lvl cap of 20 is extremely low, but with *those* Exp rates it's going to take a while. I'm more the person to follow the RO style: lvl 100 and keep em counting baby! But oh well ^^;;; So if anyone decides to look for me, my char's name is Warynn Alvein. I'm in one of the European districts, or if someone from the american servers wants to meet me, gimme a message here or on my msn, so we'll arrange a meeting the international district.
That's all I have to say for today, I'm still a little worn out from last night's going out (one of the few times i went out...) and my internal clock is kinda screwed up. Maybe more about that later :).

Cy'all, peace

--Warynn

doubts

So...being unable to come to a good conclusion I've decided to post my biggest doubt of my life here and take advice from you people. It's an emotional/love dillemma which i'm finding so freaking hard to come out of. Both sides have equal cons and pros (for me that is). Kinda hard for me to explain all of them here but i'll try my best. The choice between 2 girls (how freakin' cliché eh...hate that fact)
On one side there is a girl which i have 100% certainity for a great relationship. I haven't done much together with her, but we talked a HUGE lot on msn and i know almost everything (literally everything) about her. We broke up cus of doubts, but we both still love eachother a lot, of that i am very sure. But getting together again with her would also mean having to break her up with her bf. So once i choose her there's no going back at al, ever again. I will not hurt her again like that.
On the other side there's the other girl. I've known her for...6 years? 7? And I've loved her during that whole time. But lately she's been very down and chaotic. Whenever i try to help her she keeps pushing me away and she broke with me up cus of her emotional problems before...twice. Hurt like hell. Now i still feel for her too, and she for me. But i'm not sure...just not entirely sure. And there's also the chance she might break up with me again if we go back together. But hen again it's so very hard to just throw all those years away, almost impossible. she said i'd be the first to know if she wanted a relation. I love her so much too...but is it worth getting hurt again?
So now i'm balancing in between those 2 choices. Which one to pick... And no matter how long i think and no matter how many logic i throw against it (my normal way of solving stuff, which has solved these kind of problems before) i just can't seem to come to a conclusion. It's tearing me apart... and my emotional/hormonal (yeah that too >>;;;; ) state aren't being a freakin' help...
Anyone advice? What would you do if you were me...

--W