Monday, bloody monday

Monday evening...well getting up wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I'm not extremely tired, so that's good. 2 more days like that to go (this week). Still thinking about it... Yeah I know, I shouldn't, but I can't help it. And somehow i don't want to stop thinking about it. Thinking about it, hoping to find out that something wasn't rightabout how she did it, that she didn't broke up with me, but that it's just a "pauze". Idle hope? Bleh I want to talk about it with her, but I won't be able to until friday. I really don't want her to feel bad, but that's going to be hard. Especially since it's my birthday friday, she'll feel extra bad. Aaaggh life's a bitch ("then you rejuvenate and do it all over again.")

Don't really have much else to say... tomorrow another day of early torment. Wednsday free day but prolly a mentally hard one. Oh boy...

Signing out. Cy'all...

--Warynn

Day 2 (unoriginal, I know)

Gallows humour. I've been living off of it all day now. My feelings in chaos, my nose and forehead clogged up by a bad flue...gah I feel totally f*cked up. Everything i see, hear, think, do reminds me of her. Idioticly I'm still nagging about it too, instead of trying to forget. She's on msn right now, barely talking to me. Can't blame her though, what's there to talk about? She's still playing that game we used to play, now just without me. Makes you wonder... Or is that just me?

School tomorrow. Shitty... I can barely stay awake, this illness is giving me the feeling of being awake while sleeping. Strange I know but it's the best how I can describe this. I can't afford to stay home though: 3 hours of programming tomorrow and i understand barely anything of the whole pointer subject... gah "pointer to void" *shudder*.

In the meantime i'm still thinking about her. Or am I being jealous. Jealous for no reason... Her nick is the same then yesterday, just not the "I love you so much Wim" part in it. Makes you feel like a nothing, a useless nobody. Strangly enough I kinda felt it coming. I was playing Thang online earlier yesterday and everything went to smoothly. The right drops, the right monsters, the perfect costumers for my loot shop. Everything went too perfect and i said ironically to myself "A lot of luck in the game...that means no luck in love...mheh doesn't fit anyway *smile* ". Then see what happens. Hah! Coincidence? or not? Think about it.
I'm going to get something to eat now. To bed early today, getting up at 5.30am tomorrow...god the paaainn ~.~" And with this flue...someone pray for me...

Peace y'all.

The beginning

So...I have a blog. It's kinda weird for me to have a blog. Well I personally never thought myself the type to have a blog. Then again...I've been thinking about it for some time, and this is it. What made me do it? Well...emotions I guess. I think/hope this blog to be a place to vent them, or to write silly/strange/other stuff here. For the moment...emotional. Yes this is going to be a sob story ~.~" All who hate those stop reading. But...I don't really know how to start. I'm not the "whine i'm sooooo sad *sob sob*" type. I like it subtle... Sooo, where to start? ... ... You ever been thinking as an 18 year old single hopeless romantic how the rest fo your life would be? If so when did you think about it? When you were in love? When you were with friends without gf/bf? When you just broke up? Your thought may vary quite a lot depending on when you think about it. Myself, I've had the first and the last type in a 2 day period... yeah that's right, that's what happened. Life's a bitch, and although it is that way, I'd like life to go on... *sigh* I wonder... About what you ask? A lot of things for the moment... most of them to sob-ish for my taste to write down here. The next days are going to be hell. Usually i wait for her at her school wednsday, so that's going to be the hardest. Well...I don't know what else to write down here. (darn long post, especially for me o.O'; )

A blog can be visited eh? I wonder who'd visit mine... random people, friends? Hah we'll see... Come what may (for a lot of things). So, if you want post your comment. If you want to break me down, go somewhere else, I can go without for the moment. Everyone else, thanks I guess ^^;